I adore men. It breaks my heart that women so misunderstand you. And it pisses me off that so many of the good things that have happened for (at least some) women in the past 50 years have created such funky dynamics between empowered women and the good guys who love them.
It represents being at the effect of your relationship, and taking what you get. When you’re in the blame game, you are looking for who's to blame. You either blame your partner and feel resentful towards them or blame yourself and beat yourself up about it.
I stumble in and sit down. Through my sleepiness, I do my best to find that posture that takes on a life of its own.